Dreams:People

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In this section you will find dreams and their assessment in relation to people and places in the world
First you will read briefly about the dream, then a perspective of the dream is given as it is relevant for one's process. You may also find self-forgiveness statements as part of the perspective section.

Dream about father
"Oh my fucking god I just got into a fight where I killed my father. It was a dream and somehow my father and I got into a fight about rattlesnakes. I was talking about how cool they were or something and my father starts saying “stay away from snakes” and I’m like “that’s not the point” and my father interprets that as “you’re wrong” and “refuses to re-consider” and resists that in himself by saying “no I’m right, you’re wrong, you stay away from snakes”-- and then suddenly “I am the one who is wrong” and I am suddenly copying my father-- then we’re fighting-- it got to a point where my father attacked me- he came at me in single-minded, focused fury and punched me right in the throat- we fought, and in the fighting my father took a picture of me and my sister as infants and punched each of the images in the throat- it left a little mark on each of the pictures where we had been hit in the throat. Like, as if by attacking the photo he was attacking us. I then broke both my father’s wrists and punched him in the throat and killed him. I was not expecting my father to die, but when he did not get up I thought that he was dead. He was in his underwear. It had been very hard to hurt him because his body was so much bigger than me. I was fearful about getting in trouble for killing him, so I was relieved to have the “photo that he had attacked”- because it seemed to me like this was proof of the depravity of my father’s behavior and would justify to others what I had done. (oddly, the photo was not like “a family photo- it was like “a magazine catalouge”- the background was a solid blue color, and my sister and I as infants were side-by-side as if we were each a separate image placed next to each other to model (each of us) a pair of infant-underwear. There were 4 images that my father “attacked/ marked” in total- I only mentioned the two earlier because that was all I was certain of. I think there was an image of my mother involved in that somehow. Like one of the two other images was of her as a teenager.) -My father “attacking me”: This is a clear reference to a time when my father punched me in the sternum onetme. His “focused fury” in the dream is a clear and direct recreation of that incident when he attacked me like that. I have thought to myself in the past: “Well at least it was in the sternum. Maybe he didn’t really even want to hurt me because he hit me in the ‘most guarded spot’ on my body. -When practicing martial arts, several months later and much more recently, I have practiced striking at the throat; I always imagine myself attacking someone much bigger than me and the throat/ neck is an easy place to guarantee instant damage. -Apparently I am attacking my father when I practice martial arts. I have not noticed that before. I remember the moment where I first started to lift weights/ workout/ bodybuild- I remember what I was seeing with my eyes and what I was thinking: I was looking at these double doors in my mother’s house- and I was thinking “Should I do this? Isn’t it really self-absorbed, arrogant and insecure? Should I really go into this?” --what “made up my mind” was the thought of “me being able to “beat back” my father if he ever hit me again.” Self-pity and self-infatuation got me and I went into it, resulting later on in significant eating disorders."

Perspective
So in essence in the dream you're fighting against yourself as the idea and belief you're still holding and not actually self forgiving of yourself towards your father - a pointer to understand when one has been abused by parents is to realize that they certainly don't know what they are/were doing, they were programmed to do that and we have to self forgive unconditionally to actually let go. What I see in this dream about killing is not so much the idea of actually having 'him' dead but finally killing that idea/belief you are still holding a grudge on to as your father - which has been a constant dwelling throughout your process - and I say 'which' because it's simply the entire point he represents: you fighting against you as everything that you judge about him is also ourselves - anything we judge about others is us as well - hence the importance of self forgive and let go. The 'Letting Go' is the death part - finally having the opportunity to get rid of it, to end the constant battle against yourself as the idea you've held against your father and that's it.

Rattle snake reminded me of the animal support stuff back then wherein I had that 'animal support' and Bernard described it as 'Rattling the cages of the caged' which means actually daring to get ourselves out of our self-created jail - your father has become that point of limitation which keeps you locked in to your entire self-definition. Hence the coolness of this dream wherein you can simply say I am able to do this through stopping my eternal grudge against my father and stand up clear, self forgive and let go.

From here I suggest looking at where and how you could still be directing points in your world 'just to not be like your father' which is what ALL human beings go around thinking as constant ingrained fear of 'not becoming like our parents'. So this time, we have to literally simply let go of that pre-programmed link of father-son and the conflict of becoming them to realize we are definitely able and capable of directing ourselves to become that which is best for all and not continuing the same patterns - which in resisting them would simply fuel the entire point so you would then in fact end up becoming like him/ or anyone else for that matter that you could contain information from.

So that's about acting in Self-Direction, Self-Will to not simply act out of spitefulness, vengeance or opposition which is only creating the polarity and thus perpetuating the same bs.

Quote: "so for all the words I will speak its really useless because I'm not placing the words with the intention to support myself in living practicality, but am just "entrenching' myself in this energetic personality-machine so I can delude myself into believing I am separate from and protected from these forms of energetic abuse (self-judgment, fear, inferiority, suppression, superiority, justification, denial, delusion, dishonesty) I am allowing to exist as myself"

See how you KNOW what you are doing yet you still believe yourself to not be capable of seeing this for yourself. I can assure you you are aware of what I just wrote above, it's just a matter of living it - as we've discussed previously as well.

So stop entrenching yourself in this self-belief of not being able to support yourself and simply continuing deluding yourself. So see how you say 'believe yourself to be protected' - we only require protection when we are already accepting the fear as ourselves - thus realize that you are doing within that the same as 'resisting becoming like your father', just acting out the constant polarity in friction which ends up simply in you locking yourself down in those actual judgments, suppressions, justifications etc. You allow it, now it's simply time to let go of them.

That's how Death means Re-Birth as well - re-birthing yourself now without the entire huge-ghost that you've created of your father - ghost because it's simply the ideal you've kept of him holding you down.

I'd say the day you stop seeing your father as your eternal enemy, you'll start seeing how obvious it is that you have only been fighting yourself, that you can actually stop and start from scratch building yourself now without having that constant pre-configuration of the family construct -specifically related to father - loaded as 'who you are'.

We can only fight ourselves, we can only spite ourselves, we can only abuse ourselves when believing to be antagonizing anything/anyone. -

Dream about zombies
A recurrent theme in many of my nights in the past were of zombie dreams, not too much lately then last night it was another zombie one, either the threat of, or direct confrontation with, or that I am a zombie, etc; many many scenarios

And another strange one recently was that I was fighting with a dragon that I 'knew' I could not beat 'Yet'... It was at a time when I was really going crazy with incessant streams of thought, of course they have not stopped yet, it does not feel like they ever will, but I have located my silence within all of this, and I no longer feel guilty when I err incredibly, its a ping pong experience of back and forth back and forth, between me as silence, and absolute mind job. So if you could let me know about the zombie thing, I would really appreciate it.

annexed: Finally 'made friends' with a zombie, to the point where I allowed him to bite me, and he even offered to only make it a little bite so I would not feel too much pain!

Perspective
I have had a lot of zombie dreams in my life as well. Our dreams confront us with who we are, in various situations. But it ALWAYS says something about us. How we react or could react to events, what we have reactions to, what we vest interest in, what is in our subconscious etc...

To give a perspective on your dream specifically, you need to write it down in detail, what happened, what you felt and what you did.

The dragon dream: why did you start fighting the dragon? And did you have a sort of "hero" complex of specialness while fighting it? The details of dreams are very specific because those show you who you are within the dream, and thus within yourself and what you accept yourself to be. What would be best for all in that zombie situation? To assist the zombie to realise it does not have to be a "zombie" and it thus not has to bite you. That's easier when you know you are dreaming. So maybe ask yourself how you manifested the zombie dreams, maybe its because of a fear of people hurting you, seeing people as sort of "zombies" who can hurt with ease. Trying to find a middle road with them so they can still hurt but only a little so it wont hurt so much. Check it for yourself.

Its very simple all you have to do is be honest to yourself = self-honest. Because the kind of dreams we have tell us something about ourselves. For example Andrea gave really cool perspective on this in one of her videos. How we manifest certain dreams according to our desires for example. That's why some people dream a lot about family, or some dream a lot about fighting, or some dream a lot about sex, or others about being a hero, always saving something or someone or being loved and adored etc... it all shows us what is dominant in our mindset, what we let control our everyday life. Here are a some really cool videos Andrea made about dreaming, to assist people in seeing this with their own dreams:

http://www.youtube.com./watch?v=RvdrpNiP8-c - http://www.youtube.com./watch?v=nqlXOfhdw9c - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=67lpKH4HJQY - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W1LOFLrNufM - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=km6FwbYWwo4
 * Dream Analysis: The Saviour in the Fight against Evil part 1
 * Dream Analysis: The Saviour in the Fight against Evil Part 2
 * Perspective on Dream: Depicting Violence at Sexual Orgasm part 1
 * Perspective on Dream: Depicting Violence at Sexual Orgasm part 2
 * Sexual Dreams Analysing 1+1=2 part 1

And I also shot zombies in my zombie dreams in the past. Because I knew no other way to deal with it. And I didn't consider and tried another way. I simply copied what I saw in the movies about zombies. And was afraid because of what I had seen in those movies, which then manifests in dreams.

So with dreams, always apply it to yourself and see where you are experiencing similar constructs in your every day life. Dreams are often more figurated and uses more symbolism. -

Dream about Bernard Poolman
I also had a dream I been a bit embarrassed about posting in this dream I went to the farm and I recall getting to the farm and I didn't tell anyone in New Mexico that I was leaving I just went to SA on a whim, anyhow I got to SA and when I got there I remember speaking with M and he opened the door for me and Bernard you were laying on the bed underneath a baby blue blanket and It was like you called for me or something and M was kinda saying wow Bernard doesn't really do that so I felt kinda special and then I got in bed with you and I sorta no other way to put it I was gonna jack you off and it was weird because your penis looked like one of those dog tails that were not cut off like one of the images I had in my head from these videos I been watching on animal cruelty and then I just remember feeling guilty like I was cheating or that I was gonna get someone angry that was with Bernard. I also had a feeling of comfort like I still didn't give a fuck about what people thought because I felt such comfort.

I also had another dream I was in Bernard’s closet and I was looking at his clothes like huh curious what you wore, and Sunette came in and picked out a JACKet thats what I remember about this anyways sorry about the grossness of this dream.

Perspective
Look at how intimacy has been programmed to be sexual. To feel comfortable implies sexuality--this is an archetype which cause much of the child abuse as the child will feel comfortable with the adult and it will be flowing as a program --disengage and correct the dream to equal and one intimacy where each stand equal openly as life and sexuality is based on definitive agreements that do not allow any games or images that involves mating games or related points. This will emerge till all points of pre-programming has opened and is stopped. -

Dream about Beyonce
I had this dream last night that was quite vivid so I will share.

I was with my sister at a house the house was crooked/uneven and my sister just so happened to be "Beyonce Knowles" the famous singer/actor lol! She was just perfect, beautiful, flowing hair, I recall her hair flowing in the wind and her kinda flipping it so perfectly - I mean everything about her was that of perfection a perfect body, you know "Beyonce" LOL!

I was waving people over like 'Hey if you want to meet my sister she's Beyonce'

I mean, I realise that she's black and I'm not in my dream but she was 100% my real sister in real life, It was like the picture of my sister changed to that of Beyonce but it was her in fact.

I was sharing with people and telling people all about her and talking her up sort of and saying 'Hey come meet my sister, she's friendly and you get a chance to meet someone "famous"' and you know I was feeling really proud of myself because after all she is MY sister and I have the chance to be special in my 'friends' eyes because we are ACTUALLY related and also special eyes in her eyes. I can EVEN casually introduce her to people and she is fine with that because it's me her sister and after all we ARE family.

I'm this ego simply because my sister IS Beyonce and I'm holding myself in an inferior position to please her so she will accept me.

I was also angry some what holding a grudge toward her for many reasons I'm also aware of this the entire time in my dream although I wanted so much to be in her life.

I wanted attention from her, and from the people that give her attention as well. I knew I would miss her very much if I did not get the chance to be her assistant. I was attempting to manipulate her, I said 'Come on please, Can I be your assistant?' I want to be your assistant, I will do a great job for you. Begging her pitifully trying so hard to convenience her the whole time that this would be a wonderful choice for her in her life, but I'm still playing the (manipulation point) I'm "your family" "your blood" (I didn't say that) but I experienced that in my dream in my secret mind, I was projecting that toward her with my voice the sad begging sound of my voice.

She really had no other choice as far as I saw it.

I was telling her you know we can push our differences aside, we did not forgive each other but I was invalidating my experience actually and I was compromising myself and was attempting to compromise her too just to fuel my ego and to feel special in her eyes like if I was special to her then that means I'm really worth something, something of great value.

Perspective
Self-forgiveness on the dream

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to constantly put off writing self forgiveness about this point and not wanting to go in depth to correct myself unconditionally

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project my fears, beliefs, opinions, ideas, thoughts, feelings emotions, judgments onto my sister and for blaming her for how I have allowed myself to experience myself - till here no further

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to face myself unconditionally in every moment no matter what

I forgive myself for not accepting or allowing myself to be self responsible for my experience by and through applying self forgiveness immediately within and as self honesty here within and as breath within and as every single moment

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try and manipulate people by pretending and presenting to them a fake face and a personality that is nice so that people will be accepting of me me and care about me and my well being

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be loved

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to actually live as an expression of love within and as equality within and as what is best for all

I forgive myself for not accepting or allowing myself to accept and care about me unconditionally and for not moving myself to always in all ways do what is best for all

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give value to opinions

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in polarity manifestations of the mind - superiority / inferiority

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look outside of myself for acceptance and guidance

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want someone to approve of me and tell me what I should do so I don't have to be responsible for myself and my actions

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to leave a back door open so I will have an excuse as to why I did not stand why I did not take responsibility for myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put on a fake face but in my secret mind I am participating in dialog and in this being self dishonest to a great degree

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the secret mind and judging myself and others as me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in self judgement

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hate myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sorry for myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that self pity is actually an expression of myself and thus I forgive myself for not accepting or allowing myself to stop myself from participating within the secret mind as thoughts of self pity and for not deleting thoughts of self pity immediately and breathing here

I forgive myself for not accepting or allowing myself to correct myself immediately

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define being 'polite' as smiling - grinning and bearing it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place being nice as more important then what is best for all and better then me expressing myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that if I speak up about how I'm experiencing myself and for standing up for myself that I'm being rude

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear hurting someone

I can not hurt anyone by simply expressing myself - I no longer accept or allow myself to fear that I will hurt someone by simply expressing myself

I not longer accept or allow myself to remain silent, if in the moment I require to speak up I will do so and I will remain here standing and doing what is best for all if I happen to make a mistake I accept that I will make mistakes but I will stand up and keep standing until I remain stable constant within and as every moment - I do not allow or accept myself to give up or give in

I allow myself to be self responsible and do what is best for all and direct myself to do so within and as every moment

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that I'm responsible for another person's experience I take responsibility for mySELF as ALL as ONE as EQUAL as LIFE and live this as an expression of me as who I am and walk as an example of self responsibility

I no longer accept or allow myself to smile and present a fake face I delete thoughts and stop the mind

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to unconditionally let go of memories and continue to recreate and rehash feelings and emotions I attached to them

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to reminisce and place value on pictures in my mind I no longer accept this from me I delete pictures immediately and stop any and all participation within and as moment as breathe here

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feed on the energy created through and by me participating in thoughts feelings and emotions

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in memories, thoughts, feelings, and emotions

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think about my sister and then react emotionally to those thoughts

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to only exist as the mind through constantly giving value to thoughts, feelings emotions and memories

I forgive myself for not allowing myself to let go of a fear that I will lose myself if I do not have memories to define myself as

I realise this is the mind and that I do not have to accept this nor participate -

I allow myself to live as self control I accept myself as self control I no longer allow myself to give my power away to the mind consciousness system

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that it is important to belong to a family

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define me as a family member and cause separation in this world because I have placed value on the idea of family

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give value to a family construct as greater then a non family construct

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire people in my family construct to treat me differently to others that are not in my family construct - ugh

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a thought running in my head that this is too hard for me to look at too hard for me to forgive

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be self dishonest and stubborn

This stubbornness I've experienced is not real it is not me in fact, I do not have to participate and I will no longer create this construct and I not longer allow myself to be spiteful I allow myself to unconditionally let go - I am here

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give value to self dishonesty through and by accepting and allowing myself to participate and exist as spite

I forgive myself for not accepting or allowing myself to realise that this experience within me is blame and a reaction to me not winning a fight

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as a loser and my sister as a winner

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate and exist as the ego of the mind and for giving my power away to the ego of the mind

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away to the ego of the mind through giving attention to it and nurturing it by creating thoughts of spite, anger and blame

I allow myself to remain HERE as breathe as humility and stand and do what is best for all in all ways

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame my sister for how I experience myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to win just one time so that I can feel I am valid and that what I say is right and now I can have a say in things

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I don't win that who I am and what I experience is has no value

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give value to an experience that only supports my ego and only supports self interest and separation and diminishes myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be embarrassed that I have allowed myself to be stubborn

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think believe and perceive that this stubbornness is me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to only exist as the ego of the mind

I forgive myself for not allowing myself to breathe

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to immediately react when I hear stories about my sister from my mother

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be sad that I no longer communicate with my sister

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear change

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try to figure out what it is im experiencing in my mind and not write out what is going on within me so that I can clearly see the pattern and correct myself

I forgive myself for not allowing myself to be self responsible for this point as soon as I became aware of it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want justice for what I believe is right and wrong

I forgive myself for not accepting or allowing myself to realise that wanting justice is bullshit

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit myself to morality that is based on polarity on energy on something that has a beginning and an end and does not last into eternity because it is not real

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give value to and idea of what morality is as a system definition and is not real

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in duality and only exist as energy

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe my sister is superior to me in all ways

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself to my sister

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define 'C' as my sister

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give value to her because she is my sibling

I forgive myself for not accepting or allowing myself to be her and stand equal to her as her as one with me as who I am as life

I forgive myself for not accepting or allowing myself to write self forgiveness as her

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define this as painful and a good reason to not continue writing

I allow myself to breath I allow myself to direct me and push me to no longer be enslaved to an idea

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in shame and regret when I hear about her or hear her name

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress how I experience myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give in to suppression

I forgive myself for not allowing myself to stop and no longer participate in thinking about the past to maintain a definition I have of myself

I forgive my self for accepting and allowing myself to want someone to consider me to be special to them

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to seek acceptance from another

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am inferior to my sister and by holding a grudge I have just existed as the opposite polarity which is superiority

I allow myself to accept me I allow myself to embrace me I allow myself to be vulnerable and unconditional in my expression and stop recreating the past and breathe here

if a thought comes up I will correct myself in the moment I will remain here and focus on my breath, I stop myself from participating and if the thought comes up I will speak out load 'delete' and delete the thought and continue breathing remain here

I no longer accept or allow myself to seek acceptance from others to validate myself

I allow myself to guide myself within and as breathe here within and as the principle of equality and oneness and do what is best for all and guide myself

I allow myself to unconditionally support myself equally as all HERE as breath

I direct I move I clarify I express

Dream II about Bernard Poolman
I think he raised his voice at me in a hallway somewhere. from what I can recal. I asked "but why you raised your voice". and the silence of me and him looking at each other. I realized why but it wasnt anything about "tone" or "volume" it was something else.

Then somehow I found this trail of emails where all donations were going to this person named "Bernard " and I traced it thinking oh. its a separation and all the funds are going somewhere else. then found out that it was some agents of the system making people think that there was a "Bernard" who was raking in all this money and transferring away from the "desteni process" yet I persisted further and found out it was a scam that it was made to look like that, kinda like a very complex Nigerian scam that floats around the internet. so people were donating money to who they thought was Bernard, from Desteni and the front was the same and bank trails were all the same made it look legit. but I knew it wasn't the same Bernard somehow it was a "scam". Weird huh.

Perspective
Cool support - any reactions created by any dream you have to take into consideration for your process of supporting yourself in applying Self Forgiveness on the points. In this case applying Self Forgiveness on to the ideas/beliefs/perceptions you've created of/towards Bernard and thus bring all the points back to Self - See which are the fears, what specific though causes the anxiety, etc.

So, open up the point for yourself as self support.

What I see within this dream is that you mainly see Bernard as that point of discipline, like with the more "loud" videos and more angry voice. The "I take no shit". Maybe the "it was something else" referred to your experience towards when Bernard raises his voice, towards what you experience within yourself in those moments.

Second part looks like insecurity about what is done with donations and stuff, like what will happen to it, what will it be used for. But also like not going with a first impression, but looking further and deeper, inevstigation more, like wanting to find out whats really happening = and then finding out that someone tried to trick you into thinking that. Which could have been your own mind playing up such thoughts within you that you experienced in your awake life.

And yeah lol about those Nigerian scams. Whenever I place an electronic device on auction online I keep getting those scam emails from people wanting to buy it for their "son" in Nigeria. LOL. Like 10 of the same emails from different people. -

Dream about Jamaica
I had quite an interesting dream which "featured" Jamaica. I had never been to Jamaica.

In the dream I had to go there. It was like my task to go there, to do something there. And as I learned this I got extremely uneasy about that - in the dream. Intense fear. Also fear of going there and leaving all my "friends" behind and having to face whatever is awaiting me there alone.

I just checked Jamaica on Wikipeadia. Looks like a nice place. Lol, we'll see whether I end up on Jamaica sometime

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to fear going to Jamaica, alone, leaving all the people I know, I enjoy being with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to fear go going somewhere alone, to an unknown territory if it's necessary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to fear facing the unknown.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to fear I might get hurt when facing the unknown.

Perspective
I would look at the fear point of 'leaving friends' and going to an 'unknown place' - jamaica could've been triggered by some other point around your day which seems 'irrelevant' in itself -

thus dig-into the actual point of 'having to do something' that is apparently against your own will - see what comes around those points in your actuality here, in reality. That way you can actually use the reactions experienced in the dream in a make-believe scenario to see the core essence of the experiences such as fears, resistances, thoughts, etc. to turn the dream-scenario into self-support to deal with your physical reality here.

By 'dig-into' I mean writing and exploring the point with its respective self forgiveness.

Cool point to associate 'Jamaica' with - actually in my 21 days of no weed video I say that 'people that don't want to leave their "jamaican dream"' which is referring to that state of being constantly high, interesting.